INTO THE FOG

INTO THE FOG

Shadows rise and buildings fall

People fade and silhouettes go on parade

Into the fog your vision is blind

Into the fog paranoid delusions overwhelm your mind

Far from where you are you hear a siren’s call

Sounds from inside spark the imagination

What could be causing this fear inside this reverie

Into the fog your curiosity leads

Into the fog the sweat on your forehead beads

Far from where you are you hear a cry of lamentation

Winds blow and animals howl

Out of the corner of your eye you spot a dark shape in the sky

Into the fog your legs take you faster and faster

Into the fog you aimlessly wander

Far from where you are you smell a scent putrid and foul

Thunderous booms hit the ground

Beneath your feet you sense the intensifying heat

Into the fog you are lost and alone

Into the fog you wonder about family and home

Far from where you are you smell rotting flesh and you feel your heart pound

Hues of grey darken and lightning strikes illuminate

A shade now stands near you and its unknown intentions make you afraid

Into the fog you went to find an answer

Into the fog you went to face your master

Far from what you were you discover your future is within your power to create

Day One

DAY ONE

I am getting older and I am losing my hair

Unlike other men I just don’t care

My self-image is not connected to the follicles on my head
I determine my self-worth by what I do instead

Day one of another year is already here

2015 is now a blast form the past

Memories of work and play cause me to know I chose the right way

Conflict and sorrow caused by our human condition keeps me wishing….

That we could see past the color of our skin; the differences between our respective beliefs and religion; so that we could all see that we suffer our own personal version of human

Greed and corruption created legislation that has lessened this once great nation to a state of decadence and consumption

Hate and fear used to divide

Tools of oppression used to persuade you to pick a side

Open that fist and look inside

You already have the power to withstand this counter-productive design

Be the change you want to be

No longer wallow in your misery

Take the initiative to selflessly help another

Remind a stranger we are all sisters and brothers from the same metaphorical mother

Day one is your time to be resurrected

You get to decide which direction you are headed

Your dreams are a reality waiting to be created

For this work intensive labor two hands of fate were naturally selected

There is much to be done before this battle is won

Kings and Queens sit atop their thrones

Ancient Aristocratic families sit in their self-indulgent and extravagant homes

Stop toiling in their fields and join me as a freed daughter or son

Their life is a result of the strength of our backs, the blood from our veins, and the sweat from our collective brow

Yet, we are expected to be grateful for the scraps, and give a courteous bow

Open your eyes to the light of our shared sun

Day one is the day this cycle is undone

Tomorrow is full of hope

Tomorrow is full of promise

To me a united species is going to be incomparably dope

To me the only way this can happen is to lovingly and compassionately embrace all that we know to exist

Day one is today, what will you do this year to improve our world?

A Sick Limerick

2015 is already at an end
2016 is just around the bend
When you think of the last 365 days do you jeer, or shed a joyful tear?
What will you do with another year?
Try not to procrastinate, again.

Love... is a struggle

Love… is a struggle

Love used to be so easy for me. I was taught to be compassionate, to care about other people and their journey through this life. I was taught to attempt to understand the struggles other people endure. Tonight I find myself overwhelmed by a sense of loss, solitude, and disappointment.

Another year of my story is now past and I find myself in a constant struggle to love my self and to love others.

When you look in a mirror who do you see?

I see a person who cannot understand how so many people can choose to hate someone because of the color of their skin, the country where they born, their gender or a belief they prescribe to. I see a person who is not satisfied with what he has done. I see a person who has failed more time than he has succeeded.  I see someone who is scared to love other people unconditionally. I see someone who wants to be extraordinary, but is only a man.

Today is difficult because yet again I am consumed with thoughts of solitude versus companionship. Part of me wishes for nothing more than to leave the destructive disputes of humanity so that I can rejoin the creative forces of nature. I yearn for the solace nature and mountains bring my soul. Yet, I continue to gravitate toward assimilation and socialization because of my fascination and affection for our people (I speak broadly in terms of our entire species).

Tomorrow I set a goal for myself to find the beauty in others. I earnestly want to be able to discover the beauty others have. I want to be able to love not only myself, I want to learn to love my fellow people, and I wish that others can as well. The most difficult part as I write is that this causes me to be vulnerable, and love is exactly that, vulnerability.

The only way we can overcome our hatreds is to communicate openly about our perceptions, and to reveal our true self to the world around us. For me this seems impossible. I am a very sensitive person who is connected very deeply to our world.  Every emotional and psychological wound received from another person strengthens my desire for disassociation with our people.

Throughout this world tensions over ancient ideologies (theologies/belief systems) have reached a 

critical mass and will soon meet their end. Will our species die as well? I think that as long as our new generations decide to love we will not.

Inside my core, the center-point of my very being, a hopeful spark stays lit. A light in the darkness calls me to action; a light in the darkness demands I continue to struggle.  

Love is a struggle I want to engage in.

What about you?

Atheism: a controversial topic and belief

A friend whom I respect asked these questions:

1. Are you happy with that? ( I'v never seen a happy healthy atheist honestly.)

2. What have you sacrificed for that view? ( everything comes with a price. Usually the death of hope and a robotic black and white view. Because it is very one sided. )

3. Do you really know what that means? ( most people claim Atheism without realizing they confess they do not exist nor does any meaning in there empty life. And there not willing to open the door to possibility. )

Here was my response:

atheist: a person who disbelieves or lacks belief in the existence of God or gods.

Of course these questions were asked:

What force compels you to take the full title of atheist. And how do you use atheism to get what you want out of yourself & others and life?

And finally you know atheism is the religion of doubt right? Thus your existence is not.


My final Response:

religion: the belief in and worship of a superhuman controlling power, especially a personal God or gods.

It seems to me atheism is actually the opposite of religion. What drew me to this belief was my study of philosophy and theology from the Sumerians until our modern times. As humans we seem to put so much weight and significance on our existence, yet nature has proven again and again that it can flourish without us.

We are not crucial to the machinations of our cosmos. We simply exist because of chaos and from it we can create. I think that atheism gives a sense of peace to me because I have not fate, no predetermined path in which I must live- I am simply a blank sheet of paper waiting for something to be written on it. A disassociation from ideology is freedom, not imprisonment.

Atheists who condemn others for their beliefs are still blind. They have not embraced the fact their reality is created by their own hand (and some consequences imposed by all that is). I am tired and did not have as much time to respond as I would have liked so I will leave you with this quote which I think sums up why I am a self proclaimed Atheist.

"I know that I know nothing" -Socratic paradox

What I did not adequately respond to was question number two.

2. What have you sacrificed for that view?

Family. I sacrificed my relationship with my LDS family to be who I am, and my relationships with those within religious communities where I was raised. When I concluded religion was counter productive to my own fulfillment my parents reacted with words of condemnation and actions which only stimulated hatred within my heart. Many years of painful memories and harsh conversations happened before we could respect each other's positions.

Although we have agreed to disagree on the subjects of religion and god, our relationship remains tentative and distant. I have been embraced by like-minded, and more open-minded individuals who have become my new, non-nuclear family. Yet, it disheartens me every time I hear people discuss the weekly events and consistent conversations they have with their immediate families because the differences between my beliefs and those of my family are so divisive that we do not interact in a similar fashion.

Anti-social behaviors and social anxieties I have stem from my disassociation from my nuclear (blood related) family. Too often these neuroses impede on my ability to articulate thoughts, and properly engage with others within social settings, especially when controversial topics are discussed. I write this not to convey my own woes, I write this so that it may help others who struggle with the education of their childhood, and the knowledge they have learned throughout their respective lives.

What thoughts do you have about Atheism, Agnosticism, or any other ism defined by a human belief?

I wish you peace and fulfillment.

-Laron

Thoughts on an Egocentric Universe

People want to believe in an egocentric universe, that is true. Science is about observation and analysis- which separates man from his own perception. Our planet is in a unique position in our universe which allows us to view a larger expanse of what exists than if life had formed on a different planet.

We did not evolve because we were created as a superlative species. We were formed because our cosmos wants to know why it exists. Molecules and atoms which we are composed of are the same as those that compose planets, stars, galaxies, and our unbelievable cosmos. This should impose an overwhelming sense of insignificance, and meaningless to the life of a person.

We are not special. We were not created in the image of an omnipotent creator. We are simply a result of an organism which wants to understand. Therefore, we are a tool with a specific design which is beyond our own comprehension and it is this that stimulates curiosity for discovery and exploration.

People have not fate, no predetermined path. This misconception is due to our narcissistic belief we are special. Should we choose to ignore our responsibility to our cosmos and refuse to learn, catalog, and understand we will be replaced by a life form which fulfills this capacity.

WE

WE

We have all been deceived. From the moment we were born lies trickled into our ears. God does not exist. 

Truth is a relative perception used to convince you of an ideology which uses this fictitious character to control you. Individualistic desires are a result of your education. Narcissistic behaviors caused by your submission transformed you into a blind deaf cripple.

Intelligence, logic, and reason cannot be removed. Our brain was developed by a multitude of complex processes to create this superlative system.  Knowledge is power. When someone reads, watches, and listens their ears send this information to their brain to be saved and analyzed. Therefore, it is an inevitably for people to realize their reality is different from what they were taught when a sign from our immediate environment is noticed.

Denial will cause some to choose death. They oppose their senses- they oppose their consciousness (i.e. brain) and embrace an ideology which stimulates ignorance.

Acceptance of this eternal truth will cause a deep and immovable love for Life. Connections of molecular, biological, chemical, and social systems will reveal how complex of an organism our cosmos actually is. Questions will fill your mind with unease and sickness. Disassociation from society for introspection and observation of other people will lead to a detachment from an ideology of oppression, consumption, destruction, and ignorance.

Sadness will be overcome with a sudden and unthinkable joy that overwhelms your senses. You are no longer you. 

An ant is no longer an ant. A bird is no longer a bird. Waves in an ocean are not waves in one ocean. Rivers are not rivers. 

People are organisms which consist of other organisms. People are organisms within, and surrounded by other living, breathing, loving, sensing, surviving, life-creating organisms which co-exist to create our planet, our universe, up and unto our cosmos. 

Awareness of your world and universe connects you to our cosmos. A profound sense of wonder and fulfillment of your self occurs when you can actually let go of being an individual. You are no longer you. We are a species with a responsibility to create a future for all that we know. We are a part of our cosmos. 

I wish you all the best. Much Love. 

-Laron